Lucien

Mexico

All my life I've felt like an outsider, with my family, in my city, at school, even in my own body. I didn't fit in with anything or anyone. I had a very rich and complex inner world, even for me, with fantasies but also constant nightmares. No one wanted to help me understand it, so I hid it from everyone. Over the years I learned that the world is cruel to those who are different, and to survive I had to put on a mask, made up of everything I saw in the people around me, imitating them, because apparently that was "the right way to be," especially since I live in a religious and conservative city... But along the way I lost myself, I spent my entire childhood and adolescence acting like something else, and I was never able to develop who I really was. But the day I discovered Ghost I saw a light shine on me, his music, his lyrics, his characters, were my GUIDING LIGHTS that have helped me not to sink into the darkness of my soul. I am a trans person, with BPD and C-PTSD, from a low-income background, I dropped out of college because I can't take it anymore, I have no goals, no plans for the future... I don't fear death, I see it as something beautiful that I hope will soon come to console me... But until that happens, I let myself be embraced by the work that Tobias Forge has created, whom I see as a father figure, because his own story (real and (fictional) has given shape to everything I could never put into words, and I am eternally grateful for that. I may not have the best costume, nor the most expensive; I made it with what I had and what some friends helped me buy... I don't know if I'm worthy of winning, but I at least wanted to take advantage of the resemblance I have to Papa V Perpetua, as a sign of how much this band has helped me be at peace with myself, just as I learned from Skeletá. Ghost is my PEACEFIELD

Peacefield